Posts Tagged ‘Catholicism’

I’ve been struggling lately. Depression is something that I’ve struggled with my whole life. It’s hard for me to talk about being depressed and being a Christian in the same sentence. Part of me has always thought there must be something wrong with my faith if I am depressed. I must not really believe in God – I start to feel like a fake. (more…)


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The Rosary


I found this article and I really like all the detail of it. Before I converted to Catholicism, I didn’t understand the Rosary – the repetition of the prayers seemed mindless and bordering on sacrilegious (“And when you are praying, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they suppose that they will be heard for their many words.” Matthew 6:7) but as I’ve grown in my faith, I’ve come to appreciate the meditation of this prayer more and more. It is comforting to be able to pray without worrying about what precise words to use, like when I just pray ad-lib to God. (” In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” Romans 8:26) I think prayers “straight from the heart” are extremely important, of course, but praying the Rosary allows my mind to focus on concepts beyond words, when I am praying and thinking about the life of Christ, or Mary, the beauty of sacrifices and miracles are more deeply revealed to me. I truly love to pray. I like to pray in the shower – I’m alone and I can talk to God without distractions or interruptions. I also like to pray as I fall asleep – it’s a really nice way to go to sleep – thinking about God and talking over the day with Him. I also pray quickly throughout the day, but there’s just something special about the rosary, it’s a prayer that a whole group can say together and yet we all gain something similar and different from it. Again, my words are inadequate to describe what I mean, but here is the article anyway . . . (more…)

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Remember that song from the Sound of Music, I think, “Let’s start at the very beginning, a very good place to start . . .” Well that just popped into my head. Really, when someone asks me about my faith, I never really know where to start. I think truly, it was before I was born because it says that God knows us before we are born and I really think it just goes back all that way. Let’s get something straight, I am a terrible person and I’ve done terrible things, and I can only claim to be a Christian because of God’s mercy on me and not because I’m an example to hold up of how to live your life. No. Oh, no. But I have known God my whole life. He has been faithful to me when I was not, and am not, faithful to Him. I am grateful for that beyond words, and most of the time I don’t even comprehend it. I would have kicked my butt to the curb long, long, ago. Luckily, God has more love and patience than I do. I heard recently that, “God loves us not because of who we are, but because of who he is.” It was such a wonderful revelation to me, such a load off my shoulders, because even though I know about forgiveness and grace, I hadn’t yet thought of the words to make it fit into my brain. I didn’t yet have a little anchor to hold onto when things (read those voices in my head that tell me what a loser I am) get stormy. (more…)

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